28 July 2011

Don't forget to remember.

Mira walks in the empty guild hall, stopping as she crosses the threshold. The familiar sights, smells, things she hasn't felt in years come washing back over her. Her eyes immediately brim with tears and she takes a breath. She pulls a piece of frostweave out and dabs her eyes as she makes her way across the common area. She lightly fingers the armor, drawings, and notes posted on the walls.

Determined, she sucks in her sobs and walks to her former quarters. She wonders if Moonracer occupied them. Turning the lock, she trembles as the door creaks open, the room just as she'd left it years ago. Overwhelming sadness and regret fill her heart as she looks through her old things. After a few minutes, she comes across her old
journal. She settles onto the bed with a heavy sigh and opens the worn tome. her fingers trace the old words, some forgotten, some she only wishes she could forget.

I'm sorry I left you all. I knew nothing else I could do." she murmurs, to no one. "The Knights will always hold a special place in my heart." The sobs she can no longer hold break her words and she quickly closes the tome, hugging it to her chest as she lays down on the old bed and curls up. Halo and Ben race through her mind, along with all of her old friends. Long lost now, it seems. Her heart is heavy with what she knows she has to do, what she came here to do, what she hasn't been able to do for so long.

Her crying wears her down, and soon enough she settles into a fitful sleep, unintentionally spending her last night within those hallowed halls.

Dawn breaks, and the early Darnassian sun filters through the window, waking Mira. She sits up, and runs her fingers through her red hair, tucking the unruly locks behind her ear. She tarries not, feeling more relief and exhaustion than sadness. She takes one last look around the room, tucking the old journal into her bag as she walks out
one last time. Her only pause is to stick a short, hastily scribbled note by the door.

"Goodbye my Knights. Where I shall be, I'm not sure. But I shall always be a Knight in my heart, and if you shall have need of me, I will do my best to aid. All of love, Mira."

She takes one quick look around and steps out, shutting the door behind her.

14 January 2008

14 January

Two years.... It's been two years since Rivkah handed over the Knights. It feels like a stitch in time but oh, how things have changed.

We've grown. We've lost. We've been happy, and sad. We've seen new families begin...and families end.

I love my Knights. I'm very proud of them. There's changes I still would like to make, but we're okay.

Heh...two years. It's odd that it didn't alway feel like -my- family instead of Rivkah's. She's been gone, for the most part, since I began. But her presence was still with me. I worried about makin changes that she wouldn't like. I worried about upsettin her. Yeah, it's been nearly two years, an only in the last year have I started to feel like it's my family. OUR family.

We've grown. Can I handle it? I certainly ain't had no trainin leadin folk or nothin. I just want us to work together, play together, love each other.

We wouldn't be nothin without all of the members. I wouldn't be able to get anything done without Wind an Tae an the ladies an lords.

I appreciate them all. I should tell em more.

My wonderful knights. My family.

I've changed. More than most will ever know. I'm happy. So very happy.

13 January 2008

13 January


O fulo osa O rini osa do falla ni

05 January 2008

05 January

I worry about her. Somethin ain't right. She's always been a bit rough..but never mean or hateful. She even snapped at me. She says she's all right, but I ain't so sure. I feel really helpless. What can I do? I don't know nothin...

31 December 2007

31 December

I am truly happy. Another realization that came quickly. Startled me and took my breath. Not as much as the one, but still.

How is it something can sneak up on you and once you realize what's happened, it's really too late to stop it. Do you even wanna stop it? I don't.

Thinkin back a few months, I realized...and it caught my breath. I felt stuck under water for a few moments, unable to take a breath. Breath I needed. Had I really cared....it would've been way too late. It sounds bad. Perhaps it was for a short time. But it didn't take long for the panic to subside.

I'm happy.

24 December 2007

24 December

It's odd. It's odd how something that seems so silly at the time can cause a world of trouble. How quickly something so sweet and special can be ruined.

I hope it's not as I think. As bad. I hope I get over this feelin.

20 December 2007

20 December

I think he's truly gone. I went after him, a couple months back, after gettin word of where he might be. But I got nothin...now...I can't even sense him at all.

I am but one. Something new...something I don't like. One Traas.