31 December

I am truly happy. Another realization that came quickly. Startled me and took my breath. Not as much as the one, but still.

How is it something can sneak up on you and once you realize what's happened, it's really too late to stop it. Do you even wanna stop it? I don't.

Thinkin back a few months, I realized...and it caught my breath. I felt stuck under water for a few moments, unable to take a breath. Breath I needed. Had I really cared....it would've been way too late. It sounds bad. Perhaps it was for a short time. But it didn't take long for the panic to subside.

I'm happy.

24 December

It's odd. It's odd how something that seems so silly at the time can cause a world of trouble. How quickly something so sweet and special can be ruined.

I hope it's not as I think. As bad. I hope I get over this feelin.

20 December

I think he's truly gone. I went after him, a couple months back, after gettin word of where he might be. But I got nothin...now...I can't even sense him at all.

I am but one. Something new...something I don't like. One Traas.

12 December

Things change. Life ebbs and flows through many twists and turns. There's changes I've experienced that I wouldn't have ever said likely. Fel, I wouldn't have even allowed em.

Fel's slipped off. Gone. Into the shadows. Ree's stepped back. Rivkah's disappeared...

We've ventured into Medihv's tower. A rather dangerous place. Over all, I'm pleased with how it's goin. We'll see what the future holds.

I'm workin on definin some things within the Knights. Our family grows an is successful. But I still feel the need to know each one. I don't think I'm successful.

29 November

Nero grows. He's the cutest, sweetest thing. Heh..has a habit of gettin into stuff. His feathers are startin to show, a light golden color.

He sang to me tonight. It was the most beautiful thing I'd ever heard. The finest music, the most well-trained artist couldn't compare.

15 November

Fin's gone now as well. I really thought she'd be some help with settin up the guild vault, but no, she got moved to Stormwind, an we ain't heard from her since.

It's a good thing, makes it easier for folk to get what they need, but it's been tough gettin things right for it.

13 November

Why is it that things always seem one step ahead of you? I ain't seen or heard from him for months. Folks say they've briefly heard his voice or that he's picked up his stones, but I got nothin.

I long ago sold his place in Stormwind, his dog's here with me. He's disappeared before. Sure he's gotta be all right...right?

I got word...I heard that he was in trouble, needed help...immediately

I'm beginnin to think I'll never know him again, never see him again.

One...step...behind...

31 October

I'll be leavin at the crack of dawn in the mornin. I gotta write what I can, no time for goodbyes. I gotta hurry...time's wastin. If I'm gonna find him, I gotta go.

17 October

I'm not sure if I feel better. You'd think I'd feel cleansed. Instead, I'm just tired. It was hard. Last night was the first time since my parents passed. I don't much like it. I don't wanna do it again any time soon.

16 October

All I wanted to do was run. I haven't felt like runnin away like that in a long time. I fell asleep rather quickly, but I tossed an turned. And woke often. At some point, I was alone. Why did it feel almost a relief? Fitful sleep. Fitful rest. Fitful thought.

I made myself stay. I don't know that I'm any better for it.

05 October

I feel better. Still a bit snarky. Hopefully, that'll work itself on out. There's some folk I'm not at all snarky around. Others I tend to just fuss to.

Silly birds. Are they birds? I dunno. They're proud, happy. Heh, well they seem so. I reckon that's all that matters.

02 October

So many thoughts, no way to get them down. Not sure I want to.

I've neglected this for so long, much like I've neglected other things. I tend to live in, in many ways, in denial. It works great until, as a friend recently told me, reality smacks you in the face.

I woke up today feelin fine. Perhaps focusin on some little things, but fine. Suddenly, I'm in a mood an things hit me wrong.

Now, there's things I don't wanna think about, things I don't want talked to me about. How these things affect me...is it my mood, the circumstance, what? I dunno.

I've been into Karazhan for more then a look-see. Instead of a light-hearted tour, fightin ensued. They didn't make it far, but it's been all right. I look forward to the Knights gatherin a group and goin. Got the people. I'd say it'd be up to him. He needs to arrange all this.

I'd wager not many folk would want for much to be around me right now. Seems some folks just set me off right now. Tense and snarky does not good company make. I don't feel like this around everyone.

09 September

Pulling, pushing, clinging, chasing....circles go round and round. Perhaps things have changed some. Am I pushing away...chasing away? I might be.

Slaate got married. They had a private ceremony, invited folks to the reception. It was nice. I don't know Trusiel much. I just want her to find happiness. I think she needs it.

So I didn't lose it...it's right here. And it's good.

More and more I struggle to find words. I'm saying less and less.

05 September

What a trying day...I'd rather not repeat any of it. I'm settlin into bed here in Ironforge. I've not spent the night here in ages. I sold our place when I moved to Shattrath. Makes no sense to keep up so many households. But there's still rooms for rent around, and I found a comfortable enough bed.

Fiesty showed up tonight. She said her goodbye's. She wouldn't tell us where she was goin, but called it a suicide mission. I don't like that one bit. Cali, Halo, Ree, an me all sat in the tavern in Iron Forge an drank with her. I told her it won't goodbye and did my best Tyree impersonation tellin her she would come back...that I demanded it. If only I believed it myself...

If only...

I almost lost it, I think. This is so much more than I ever imagined

03 September

Time is a bit fuzzy. I went to help Wind with a little pig problem and we were joined by this mage she met. He's an odd sort, indeed. I figure him to be half nuts. Seems, Vael had been charged with lookin after him, an well, he lost him. He called me Beth. No one calls me Beth but Ben...who's gone..again...I felt odd...sad...almost... meh..I need to talk to Vael. Findin him may prove as difficult for me as his findin that mage...

Happiness. Why do I feel like it's about to slip through my fingers...again?

Tucked inside the journal is a stained and somewhat tattered piece of parchment. While the parchment has seen better days, the doodle seems fresh.

27 August

Naxxramas...an interesting venture, indeed. Not unsuccessful, but no where near being successful. How very ironic that I learned three epic quality smithin patterns that I'll likely never have a use for. I find that a bit ironic.

I'm exalted with the Argent Dawn now, no doubt they'll be callin for me to come help. I keep hearin nasty rumors bout stuff goin on up there.

The Wandering Knights hosted a Tournament of Champions Sunday evenin. It was rather interestin. Interesting company, interesting conversations. The rounds went fairly quickly. The exhibits of power were quite interesting. It's funny to me that some people feel they have to be in complete control and starve for attention. The silly folks who jumped into the arena are just one example.

Dei came by. He actually had the decency to tell me he's leavin for a "vacation" this time. That meant a lot, actually. He said he just needed some time, but I can't help but wonder if it ain't got somethin to do with Feisty bein gone. Meh..he knows I'm here for him when he needs me. Course, so did she...

I wonder if folks see me as weak when I don't have to run everything the Knights do. Heck, I don't even have to run everything I do.

20 August

Life is pretty good. I look back, an I can't really think of much I got to complain about.

Another weddin this weekend. As much as I try...I hate em. I just don't really see what's so great about em. Rarely does anyone stay married. Rarely is the marriage sacred in any way. Meh...I wish em the best. I don't know her, but he's a good gent, if a little spastic. I just don't ever think it'll be for me..no matter how it's tailored.

Good times, good friends. Other than the wedding and reminders of selfish, foolish people, I've been good. Meh..actually, lately, I feel like I've been sippin from a moonwell. Tis a good thing, no?

27 July

Most of the last few weeks has been a blur. My ability to pick up my stones and hold them has been un-reliable at best. Whild it hasn't been as bad as my ability to enter the guild hall, it's been frustratin.

I've missed many of my friends, our schedules not meshing. There's been celebrations as well as frightenin experiences. The last few weeks have brought out emotions I didn't know existed any more.

I now have several "heroic" keys. I wonder when I'll use them. I'm missing the key from Honor Hold, and I expect it'll be a long time afore I'm liked enough to get that one. I've yet to even see the Shattered Halls. Isn't that sad?

The Knights have celebrated their 2nd anniversary. The actual celebration was almost a week late and very quiet. We drank and told little things about each other. I rather liked it. I hope everyone else did. We had some distinguished guests which included Halo, Slaate, and Lady Raveion and several of the Wandering Knights. I think folks were surprised and delighted with what others said about them.

During our talk, Dae took off to the tower to do some readin or somethin. He never returned and our dear Wind took off after him. He was gone, and there were drag marks from the tower. Thank goodness the Wandering Knights were there, for they helped with the search and rescue. I..I just stood there, really unable to do anything. He was found out in the Great Sea...weighted down, near death. I wonder who would've done that and why...

It seems many people are findin love, others are slipping further from it. Happiness seems so fleetin then all of a sudden it hits you in the face. I'm extremely happy for some, really worried about others.

I've been able to sit and drink with friends several nights recently, when I could hold my stones. I've enjoyed that a lot. I'm afraid to name em here, for fear I'd miss someone. There's not many things I'd rather do than sit and chat with friends.

I've had good talks and bad talks. One in particular reminded me of just how shut off I am from everyone...everything. Someone really let me have it because I couldn't open up to them. No, I can't. No..I don't trust you. I said it. I think most people know it, they just let me be me or move on to something else. Most move on.

I don't know where I've been and I certainly don't know where I'm goin. In the here now when nothin else matters, I smile. I know a taste isn't enough, will this be?

09 July

Had a nice visit in the Scryer's Terrace. Seems for an Aldor, I spend a lot of time there. The pipes are good and the company's good. What else could you ask for?

I was able to spend some time with old friends and new alike as well as some that we're just getting to know each other better.

It amazes me how quickly time flies when you're having fun.

I've always been a fan of the rain. The way if feels hitting my face. The way it cools my skin. I got a taste the other night. Now I wonder if a taste is enough.

21 June

Some things are better left unsaid. Heh, I'm one to avoid making assumptions. Too many folks have done it to me. But in this case, just knowing was enough. The words should've never been said.

On a happier note...first flight. One's first flight I think is the most magical experience. Fortunately, the feeling lasts for a while. I'm always pleased to be able to share someone's first flight.

13 June

He'd been promising to take me out carousin for a goodly while. Heh, he said we'd drink, smoke, and look for women. I told him I'd leave the lookin for women part to him. As it turns out, we had company for some of it, too. Stormwind, Ironforge, and Booty Bay. The taverns in the cities were very quiet. We had our own entertainment, though. Booty Bay was a bit more active, even had some priest watchin over us for a while.

He's perfected his herb mixture and taught me how to properly smoke from that little pipe. I liked that about as much as I like those hookah pipes. Sro said he'd make me a pipe. Now to find somethin to put in it.

I had a lot of fun. I'm not far from bein ready to do it again.

11 June

Life is good. New experiences are sometimes almost magical.

I made my first trip into Onyxia's Lair tonight. It was chaotic, but she went down without too much of a problem. It's kinda silly that I'm just now doing these sorts of things...

06 June

I woke up to one of the most amazing lightening storms I've seen in some time. Boom! At first, I tried not to look. "Must Sleep," I told myself. Soon though, I knew I'd not be able to sleep, the constant crashes, explosions, rumbling across the sky. I life up the clefthide blanket and stare up at the sky. The first drops sprinkling my face. Watching it instantaneously change from an inky black to a bright, yet drab gray. I watch the lightening jump across the sky. I see the sky light up, yet still jump when the thunder boomed mere moments later. As time passed, the boom took longer to occur.

Almost as soon as it started, the sky settled down to a mellow rumble and the rain began. The rain that will lull me back to sleep.

03 June

I'm a bit worried about about one of my Knights. Well, more than one, but... This one, she seems tired a lot and worried for her sister. We'll need to make it to the Moonglade in the near future.

I got some ... news today. Emm has stepped down as Defiant of the Bastion. Mograthna has stepped up to take her place.

Ree finished her trainin tonight and now has a beautiful snowy gryph. She was so excited. It was really neat to see her excitement and to be able to share that.

I think I need to try to understand the Draenei more, as I've tried to understand the Kaldorei. Though, each being is still an individual, I'm sometimes lost. I have questions...do all of them have a strong work ethic? Do all look at things in the concrete..black and white?

He's shown back up. Yet he hasn't approached me about my needin to talk to him. Instead, he chooses to snoop around and spy on me. Silly man...doesn't he know that if I wish to keep a secret, there's no way he'd find out?

29 May

I don't feel well...and I'm tired of folks askin me what's wrong. I know they're concerned, but I'm not -actin- like something's wrong. I'm talking and conversing and whatever, just like normal. I'm not moping. In addition to not feeling well, I'm just generally grumpy.

Perhaps my grumpiness is telling. Need to get rid of grumpy...

28 May

I did my good deed....Is this bad? It's Children's Week or some such and folks are really enjoyin takin the kids around to see the sights. I did it to make the Lower City like me more. I'm not good with kids. I kept losin this one! Thank goodness the matron gave me a whistle...though I felt like I was callin a dog....The kid gave me her baby elekk, Peanut...who likes to stand under my feet...

I spent another night in a bar with folks. Good conversation...well, most of it was anyways. Again, enjoyable with lots of drink...and I left early again...Fiest told one helluva story. She's good at that. Moon was put on the spot but he wouldn't tell anything good. Rhiver and her pack are quite close and protective. Much like the Knights.

Good drink, good company...

27 May

Well, last night was both eventful and un-eventful. Is that possible?

Saturday evenin, Ree and I were in Stormwind to meet Vael and Windblossom. We had a nice surprise, and we retired to the Blue Recluse for drinks and conversation. As the night progressed and we drank more an more, people revolved in and out. Some ladies from a different guild...Ath-somethin joined us and we all talked and drank. Unfortunately, I grew too tired to continue on and had to be a party-pooper. I'm usually the last to leave something...but my mood just wasn't what I want it to be. Rhyx embarassed the day-lights out of me, but the other patrons didn't seem to mind her at all.

Thank goodness, I don't get hang-overs...

25 May

I still haven't heard from him. I reckon he's avoidin me. Perhaps he's realized the err of his ways. But none-the-less, he can't avoid me for too long. Especially if he knows what's good for him. Heh, I actually sound dangerous. I'm not dangerous at all. Definitely not malicious as I've been accused. What would make someone think me harmful?

Last night Lyrren and I had a primal gatherin party. It was a bit chaotic. I got pretty stressed among other things. We spent about 2.5 bells and gathered 15 primals...enough for each person who came one. I had a nice relaxin time afterwards. It was what I needed to end the day.

18 May

Heh, I haven't heard from him since I told him we needed to talk. He said he'd take care of her. I think she needs help now. Give him the benefit of the doubt....He's a good man...he better take care of her.

12 May

The weddin was a nice one...as far as weddings go anyways. Even if the groom was a bit late. I was tired, uneasy so I left pretty quick after the ceremony was over. I sat out in the fresh air of the Hinterlands for a goodly while. Remembered places I'd near forgotten about. I think...I think I'll visit some of em when I have the time, when I wanna get away. It's been too long.

I think...I think somethin needs to be done about her. She's in trouble. I just know it. Now...now I gotta talk to him. Ugh

08 May

This week's been a slow one. Just like I wanted, pretty much. Gwyn and Ryn's reception was the Saturday night. It was nice, I just don't really enjoy those things. I'd much rather be with a smaller group.

Well, two of my friends may be gone for a while an it saddens me greatly. Hopefully, Elune, the Light and all that jazz will follow em and keep em safe. An happy. They need to be happy as well.

I've decided to really focus on attainin some keys from different folks in the Outlands. It's not that it's that difficult, just....time consumin and borin. I know what I gotta do, just not how much I gotta do it. I also would like to see the end of the Shadow Labyrinth. Strange how that's a place I can't seem to get to the end of...I'm really beginnin to hate that place.

Rita and Seregor get married this week. I've found a nice skirt...now for somethin to match it.

03 May

I overheard a conversation in the guild hall. One I think I should not have been privy to. ...

There comes a time when all must be brought out into the open. I said my mind would be open, but my heart isn't. Many people let their heart lead them. I've been told, "I deserve what my heart wants." It's my heart that keeps me the way I am. Odd isn't it? For most, their mind is what stops them from enterin into matters of the heart. For me, my heart stops me. My heart cannot stand to ache any more.

My heart doesn't ache any more. It's actually usually over-joyed. It's just not what most folks think I need. But it is. As I told a friend today: I think at one time I had faith in Love. Now, that's gone. An honestly, over the past year and a half, I've been happier than I ever was...except for brief, fleetin moments. My heart is full, not with Love, I don't think, but full none-the-less.

02 May

Our Tyree got her swift mount the other day. It's beautiful. She has a wonderful name for her too. I was grinnin from ear to ear when she told me.

Normally, when I'm friendly with someone, they turn tail an hide when they realize my heart simply won't let me take things further than...friends. Two people in my life have remained. And they are my dearest friends. My next dearest friends never asked for more than friendship. They're very special to me as well. Without these four people, I'd never have lasted.

There's one, I occasionally miss. I used to be able to talk to her about almost anything. But she's made choices that...are quite dangerous. An she says the same about me. She was the nearest thing I had to a confidant. Thankfully, I have someone else for that...as Dora's out of my life forever, I believe. She dropped a new robe by the guild hall. I'm sure it simply furthered her practice in tailorin. But, it's pretty anyways an I sent her a nice thank you note. It's slightly revealin, so I'm not sure I'll wear it to the reception or reserve it for another time.

01 May

Here we go, we've reached the clutch point. Will it, as usual, all end here, or will it continue on? Only time will tell. There's always a first time for everything.

I ventured back into the Shadow Labyrinth last night. I'm really beginnin to hate that place. Luck simply isn't on my side when I'm in there. We made it further than we'd ever made it before but we ran out of time and energy.

The events of the night left me satisfied but longin for more.

22 April

Usually I like surprises. Some are better than others, some are simply intoxicatin. It draws you in, like one inhales the contents of a hookah pipe, slow an deep. Spreadin through your body, blissfully drenchin you.

Surprises: unexpected, pleasant, intriguin intoxicatin--what joy. I've received a few such surprises in my lifetime, one most recently, though my memory is fuddled. Could it be the smoke I inhaled, or the surprise itself? Or was it all a surreal hallucination?

10 April

Do I take things, people for granted? Am I taken for granted? I think both to an extent. Some things or people more so than others. Is this troublesome? Perhaps. How does one fix it? In the case of bein taken for granted, do you pull back? Would others even notice?

2 April

My weekend was pretty much as I wanted. A bit of excitement intermingled with some nice relaxin times. I enjoyed it.

Ben's finally married. He was late, heh, they both were. But all in all, they were married in a nice ceremony. Our "lady of intrigue" officiated and she did a wonderful job. I'm workin on gettin it sketched up. I'll admit, I didn't have the best view. Heh

My adventures were fun, challenging in their own way. The conversations were much the same. Some nice, others not so. But, as always, I'll dwell on the nice.

Else I'm left wonderin an dwellin on how to stop someone from tryin to destroy all I have?

30 March

My brother is to marry tomorrow. I wonder if they’ll go through with it. I have a dress, but I’m not too sure it’s me…I’ll probably look around for something else. He’s found this nice little place in the Wetlands. I never even knew it existed. It’s delightful. The perfect place for a weddin. They seem good for each other. She’s a nice girl. Has a problem with a gnome, though. I’m not sure how that’ll work out. I reckon they’ll go through with it. They both seem happy an eager. But have put it off several times. Heh, I ain’t never been in a weddin before. I don’t know what to do.

I’ve been kinda takin it easy. My weekend was pretty busy with goin places. I really like goin places. But other times, I like to kinda take it easy an chat a bit. Which I’ve also done some. I’m tryin to help Dora out a little by collectin some motes. She seemed tickled last night when I handed her what she needed to make her first primal mooncloth. We still don’t talk like we used to. Fel, we don’t really talk at all. Thank goodness I’ve got someone else I can talk to. But, we’re tryin to help each other out a bit.

Well, I hope we venture back to the Shadow Labyrinth tonight an that I get to do some more fun stuff this weekend. I’d also like to sit back an chat some. We’ll see. Every time, I think there’s more good folk out there, I’m reminded of how hateful an cruel folks can be. I hope no hateful, cruel folk cross me any time soon.

Heh, it seems I give some looks an other indications that I don't like folk I meet. Unapproachable. Interestin.

16 March

A fairly relaxin week. In a way, it's been nice. In other ways, I yearn for excitin adventure.

I've been adventurous. On Tuesday, several of us went into the Upper Spire to take on the General. On Wednesday, Me, Fel, an Taina went into Dire Maul an collected ogre beads off them smelly things. We all three got all the beads we needed, an now need to collect a few more things. A nice way to finish off the night was dinner an conversation. The food was good, the company was good, I enjoyed myself. Wednesday was a good day.

13 March

I've decided. It's time. I've gotta get away. I'm lookin forward to it. I find nice little spots here an there, but..this weekend..this weekend, I'm goin far away. I don't plan to pick up my stones at all. Last year, me an Dora went to a nice out of the way place. I'm doin the same this year. The sun, sand, an water calls for me. I hope the weather is agreeable. Hopefully, I'll be able to rest an get over this naggin, exhausted feelin.

Tonight, Taina has organized a trip to the Upper Spire. I can't even remember what pieces of Lightforge/Soulforge I need. At least the breastplate and helm...I think. I've already decided that since Mogs only needs the breastplate an she's almost done with her quest for the complete soulforge set, that I'm gonna defer my roll to her, if we get lucky. I still have plenty of time. I sure do hope someone in there walks out with their chestpiece tonight...

12 March

I'm sendin all my cloth an silk to Dora. As an act of good will. I know everything. Well, almost everything. I've known for several days, a week I guess. I'm not sure I like knowin what I know. My meetin with Dora didn't end as I'd have expected it to.

When we first talked last week, we were cordial. Contactin her was one of the hardest things I've ever done. I had no desires to re-hash things goin on, but I had to know what she was up to. We just talked. Both of us were fairly cool, but pleasant. She made no accusations, an I asked no questions. She said she's been doin some sewin an enchantin, an I told her I'd send my extra supplies. She seemed grateful. Even though she abandoned me, left without talkin to me, I'm still sendin her my extras.

09 March

I made my first trip into the Steamvault last night. Naga, elementals...ugh. It was rather rocky, but over all, I think we succeeded in what folks wanted to get accomplished. When we were done, all I could do was rush home and fall into a bed.

I've taken it easy since completin trainin. I've mined an worked on my smithin. I still need to work more, but I finally feel like I'm makin some headway.

I haven't talked to her. I'm wonderin if I ever will. I suppose I shoulda kept quiet an maintained some sort of civility we'd shared in those couple of days. At least then, I might know what she was up to...an what he was up to.

4 March

The water seemed so invitin as I flew over the first time. I didn't dare stop then, because I knew I'd be drawn to stay and I wanted to see so much more. I noted the location and continued on with the sight seein. I can't stay away for long. Soon, I find myself there. The water exhibits the tranquility I must be lookin for.

I've always enjoyed findin sorta hidden spots. Peaceful places I can sit an reflect. Most often, these places have water. Like my spot in Darnassus. I've never seen another soul there, unless I invited em. People used to wonder what I was doin in Darnassus for so long. Sometimes I sit an chat with people. Most often, I just look for peace.

Peace, quiet, cool refreshemnt. Those things drew me back today. Many things were invadin the peace I sought. Clearin my head proves more difficult. Swimmin, sinkin, swimmin. I hold my breath, lettin the clear water cleanse me. How I wish I could simply rinse the thoughts going through my head. I could imagine them flowin down the waterfall, tumblin carelessly to the pool at the bottom. I've struggled to stay busy, my mind on various tasks. Collectin warbeads, slayin demons an undead.

Today, I leave my stones on the warm rock, nestled among my clothes. I dive in, immediately awakened by the cold water. I swim laps along the length of the pool. Finally, I sink. I sink to the bottom, tryin to free my mind. I reach up, gaspin for air when I break the surface. I crawl up on the rock and lay down, warmed both by the rock an the sun shinin on down on me. I've given up on clearin my mind, I reflect on yesterday’s events.

I learned how to call forth my very own gryphon yesterday. What a glorious feelin it was to be able to fly through the air, controllin where I'm goin. Up...down...swoopin through the air. My happy thoughts don't linger for long.

What's he done? He doesn't realize. I fear for her safety, as well as my brothers. Should I? Am I bein paranoid? No, I'm not, I decide. My worries are not so much about their physical well-bein as much as emotionally and mentally. I do hope neither of them is destroyed.

I decide, I must seek her out, an warn him. This is not somethin I can ignore. I'm afraid I can't stop him. He's promised, but ignored me when I spoke of his...friends.

I set about to pickin up my armor. It seems heavier. I pick up my stones, noticin one has gone dim, fallen silent. I sigh heavily, oddly irked by this.

26 February

I made my first trip back in time a little over a week ago. After goin back, I realize how good it was that I was able to poke around. Overwhelmin as it is to go back in time like that...any time I want.

It seems the Infinite are continually tryin to disrupt the timeway, so headin back in over an over is almost a necessity. We've set the world straight twice. I'm very pleased at how well we've done.

Jes, Lendys, Rhyx, Sols, an me headed into the Black Morass. Another strange place. We actually did pretty well considerin four of us had no idea what to expect. We work well together.

A friend told me the other day I needed a companion, someone to confide in. She said I seemed very lonely, such as the type that could be lonely in a crowded room. Can't anyone be like that? I assured her I was fine. It interests me that I appear so. I have wonderful friends. I'm actually very lucky.

19 February

Well, the last few days have been quite eventful for me. Friday, I got to visit Old Hillsbrad for the first time. It's an amazin place. I wasn't feelin to well to begin with an once we got in there, I was simply blown away. Travelin through time...it's just strange. The combination of bein so tired an overwhelmed took a toll on me an I had to rest for what I thought was just a little while. Turned out, I slept clear until the next day. I woke up once, felt even worse than I did the night before.

Fortunately, by late Saturday, I was feelin lots better. Actually, better than I've felt in a while.

Fronzak, Lendys, Rhyx, Solsticia an I went to Old Hillsbrad to try to free Thrall. I actually kept em up standin an fightin most of the time. Though, in the end, we didn't get him completely free. I learned a lot there.

Sunday, Glyndin, Lyrren, Sheamass, Taina, an me went to what folks call the Mana-Tombs. It's in the Auchindoun in Terokkar Forest. Odd place it is. Taina had to go to a prior committment so Jeslyn joined us. We weren't successful in our final task either, but we learned a lot.

But, though I felt really good for those two evenins, I've kinda fallen back. I went to bed early. I'm tired today. Perhaps too much of a good thing?

I think I'll need to focus for a few days on minin. I've got both jewelcraftin an smithin to supply. That's apt to keep my busy for some time.

16 February

Bre's party was nice. She, an I, got to put faces with voices from the Knights as well as a few others. In the end, she was very tired an I had to rush off to Zul'Gurub. We fought this big sea monster thing. I'd seen similar creatures, but he bounced us all over creation. Mogs needed us to stay close to her so we'd all bounce at the same time. I found a nice little spot that if I bounced, I always landed in the water.

I've found that sometimes it's the little things. Little things I can't really share with everyone. Those little things make me smile. Little things like blinkin for the first time. Little things like a bouquet of flowers. It's the little things that mean the most to me.

15 February

I don't get all these tokens of affection an such. Can't folks see that it's just a means to get hurt?

I dunno, perhaps my bein tired is causin me to be more grumpy than I should.

No, I've just simply had it. I think I was wrong, again.

Bre's party is this evenin. I'll be there an in good spirits, like always. Heh, I ain't plannin on nothin more than bein there. That may be too much. Plannin don't leave nothin but disappointment behind.

Hopefully, this rubbish will be over soon an I'll be able to walk through town without the smell of perfume an cologne everywhere.

06 February

I am feelin better today. I think. The past few days have been long. For a many reasons. Part of which, I think I've sorted. I think.

Still, I often look for reasons to go visit Lord Grayson in Stormwind. But I don't think he'll be happy with me if I return to him wishin to retrain. I've got some new gear an I see a difference.

When I was trainin before, I had a nice balance between the holy, protection, an retributions specialties. Today, I'm mainly holy.

Before I go back an visit him, I'll see how much I can bug those able to hurt stuff a lot. See what I'll have to do to get them to come out an help me. An how long I can stand it....



"Hmmmm... Mira seems to have left this book open, while she is busy". Fel chuckles to himself. He admires the delicate lettering but is deeply saddened by so much heartache within these pages. Finding a pencil near by, he started to make some ammendments, but then thought better of it.... well maybe just one!

I am sure the word bug is totally wrong, thee could say command, but you would never do that... I know you to well. m'Lady, my guiding light and my Sovereign, just ask!

02 February

I'm still tired. Very tired. But things are all right.

I worked quite a bit yesterday, just not much in my plate. I hope to work more in my plate over the next few days.

I can now port myself to Darnassus! So now, my plan is to set my hearthstone to whatever area I'm workin in. It's easy to get used to. An easy to miss when I'm not in my robes.

01 February

A long two days. Yesterday was long. The atmosphere around me felt thick. Even though there was no question about attendin that memorial, it was not something I looked forward to.

After the memorial, I remained in Eastvale for a good while. I'd known him for just over a year. He was a good man and a lot of fun to be around.

I've found that I'm able to keep my mind on other things a lot better than I could in the past. Fightin, workin, chattin, etc. keeps my brain occupied and keeps me from coming undone.

Today, Fel an I worked all day. It was fruitful for the both of us. We both were able to visit our trainers an learn some new things. I netted well over 100g to boot.

But, I'm tired. Much more tired that I've been before.

28 January

The wind howls around the cabin. The walls creak. Oddly, I still find comfort here. The snow gently falls outside. The fire keeps my body warm, but does nothing for my heart.

I carried on with my usual business today. After I ... heard the awful news. I suppose had Megar . . . Megar. The name still rolls off my tongue as smooth as silk. No matter how long it's been since I mouthed it. Tonight was the first time in ages, I've said his name out loud.

Me, Fronzak, Tyree, Rena, Moz, an Aelien met with a fella, Priam, in Darnassus tonight. I'd met him once, a while ago. But Megar. Megar was in a guild with him.

Megar is gone. No sense in dwellin. I said goodbye a long time ago. A friend died in his sleep last night. I can't dwell on that either. I read the note Katen left. I'll attend the memorial. Because I should. I've said my goodbye. Here by this fire tonight.

I've always taken comfort here. The snow here doesn't feel so cold to me. I often find some peace here.

27 January

Fel, Rena, Tae an me did some work around the Marsh. We went out to these ruins, an as we were leavin, I remembered I had somethin to do there. I told em to wait. I drank that potion, an next thing I know, I'm lookin down a beak! AFter I talked to that fella standin there, I turned an faced my friends.

They didn't look so kindly toward me. I hugged an blew kisses to Rena an Tae. They just kinda stood there, in shock. But Felspar! He ran from me! He even tried to sap me!

Fortunately, my ugliness didn't last too long.

22 january

The last couple of weeks have been a blur. Many things goin on. Many changes.

I've experienced good an bad in the last two weeks. I've done a lot. I've not done some things I wanted to. But, such is life.

I have wonderful news. I wish that it not be overshadowed by any of the goins on around here. Benoin has returned! He's alive! I don't understand everything. He ended up on that island. Where the blue people crashed.

Hrm, the blue people. Draenei, I think? That crash. The portal. Coincidence? I think not. I've met a few Draenei. They seem to be honorable an follow the Light. Or are they one with the Light? I've admitted a few into the Knights. These Draenei have personally met other Knights an such. I'm not yet ready to whole-heartedly trust em.

I've been through the Dark Portal. What's on the other side is . . .

I've traveled further into the Outlands an rather like Zangarmarsh an Shat'rah City. The city's huge. An interestin. I've found it easy to get around in. Of course, I had this thing to give me a tour.

Ramblin, all I'm doin.

15 January

I am but one person. A human. A woman. I’m more than slightly imperfect. I have no formal education. I grew up in the hills of Elwynn. My folks, while well traveled, were simple country folk from Westfall. How I got to where I am today…

I'm one person. Sometimes unable to see the forest for the trees. I'm a human who's been hurt, a woman alone, perhaps rejected.

Through my trainin as a Paladin, I've learned that in order for some situations to not blow up, I must remove myself. I'm not made of glass. But I may shatter. Not shatter myself. But shatter others through my words and actions. I've done it in the past. I don't wanna do it again. I am not perfect.

I find myself steppin back from many things. Is it too much? I have yet to see. One battle ended a while ago. Did I win? More an more, I think not. But was there anything to win to begin with? Can you win what you cannot have?

I've removed myself from Dora's life. It's best.

I've been Sovereign of the Knights for one year. We've grown. I've seen good people come and good people go. Losing good people...it's very hard on me. I don't foresee that gettin any better or any easier for me.

I've made many mistakes. No doubt I'll make more. I am but one person. More than slightly imperfect.

12 January

There's been several life changing events since I began trainin as a Paladin. The invasion of the Scourge the biggest. But nothin's prepared me for this. I thought Nil, Bargas, an Alewen were speakin in madness. But it's happened. The portal. The Dark Portal. Demons….. When I was walkin around Darnassus ,I heard talk. I heard the elves clatterin. I dismissed it at first, ya know, as silly gossip. Much like I'd done with what Bargas was sayin. But when Zath told me the portal spewin out demons, I was alarmed. I couldn't lollygag around the city anymore. I ran back an told Fel's mum I'd see her as soon as I could.

I tried to help. Zath, Gan, an myself headed down to the Blasted Lands to see for ourselves. A sad sight indeed. Unsettlin. Demons seemingly pourin through the portal. Even a Dreadknight. I had a hard time, eventually passin out. When I came to, Zath yells to me to get out. I take off. Zath an I visit the Harborage an then travel back up to the Plaguelands.