27 July

Most of the last few weeks has been a blur. My ability to pick up my stones and hold them has been un-reliable at best. Whild it hasn't been as bad as my ability to enter the guild hall, it's been frustratin.

I've missed many of my friends, our schedules not meshing. There's been celebrations as well as frightenin experiences. The last few weeks have brought out emotions I didn't know existed any more.

I now have several "heroic" keys. I wonder when I'll use them. I'm missing the key from Honor Hold, and I expect it'll be a long time afore I'm liked enough to get that one. I've yet to even see the Shattered Halls. Isn't that sad?

The Knights have celebrated their 2nd anniversary. The actual celebration was almost a week late and very quiet. We drank and told little things about each other. I rather liked it. I hope everyone else did. We had some distinguished guests which included Halo, Slaate, and Lady Raveion and several of the Wandering Knights. I think folks were surprised and delighted with what others said about them.

During our talk, Dae took off to the tower to do some readin or somethin. He never returned and our dear Wind took off after him. He was gone, and there were drag marks from the tower. Thank goodness the Wandering Knights were there, for they helped with the search and rescue. I..I just stood there, really unable to do anything. He was found out in the Great Sea...weighted down, near death. I wonder who would've done that and why...

It seems many people are findin love, others are slipping further from it. Happiness seems so fleetin then all of a sudden it hits you in the face. I'm extremely happy for some, really worried about others.

I've been able to sit and drink with friends several nights recently, when I could hold my stones. I've enjoyed that a lot. I'm afraid to name em here, for fear I'd miss someone. There's not many things I'd rather do than sit and chat with friends.

I've had good talks and bad talks. One in particular reminded me of just how shut off I am from everyone...everything. Someone really let me have it because I couldn't open up to them. No, I can't. No..I don't trust you. I said it. I think most people know it, they just let me be me or move on to something else. Most move on.

I don't know where I've been and I certainly don't know where I'm goin. In the here now when nothin else matters, I smile. I know a taste isn't enough, will this be?

09 July

Had a nice visit in the Scryer's Terrace. Seems for an Aldor, I spend a lot of time there. The pipes are good and the company's good. What else could you ask for?

I was able to spend some time with old friends and new alike as well as some that we're just getting to know each other better.

It amazes me how quickly time flies when you're having fun.

I've always been a fan of the rain. The way if feels hitting my face. The way it cools my skin. I got a taste the other night. Now I wonder if a taste is enough.