31 October

I'll be leavin at the crack of dawn in the mornin. I gotta write what I can, no time for goodbyes. I gotta hurry...time's wastin. If I'm gonna find him, I gotta go.

17 October

I'm not sure if I feel better. You'd think I'd feel cleansed. Instead, I'm just tired. It was hard. Last night was the first time since my parents passed. I don't much like it. I don't wanna do it again any time soon.

16 October

All I wanted to do was run. I haven't felt like runnin away like that in a long time. I fell asleep rather quickly, but I tossed an turned. And woke often. At some point, I was alone. Why did it feel almost a relief? Fitful sleep. Fitful rest. Fitful thought.

I made myself stay. I don't know that I'm any better for it.

05 October

I feel better. Still a bit snarky. Hopefully, that'll work itself on out. There's some folk I'm not at all snarky around. Others I tend to just fuss to.

Silly birds. Are they birds? I dunno. They're proud, happy. Heh, well they seem so. I reckon that's all that matters.

02 October

So many thoughts, no way to get them down. Not sure I want to.

I've neglected this for so long, much like I've neglected other things. I tend to live in, in many ways, in denial. It works great until, as a friend recently told me, reality smacks you in the face.

I woke up today feelin fine. Perhaps focusin on some little things, but fine. Suddenly, I'm in a mood an things hit me wrong.

Now, there's things I don't wanna think about, things I don't want talked to me about. How these things affect me...is it my mood, the circumstance, what? I dunno.

I've been into Karazhan for more then a look-see. Instead of a light-hearted tour, fightin ensued. They didn't make it far, but it's been all right. I look forward to the Knights gatherin a group and goin. Got the people. I'd say it'd be up to him. He needs to arrange all this.

I'd wager not many folk would want for much to be around me right now. Seems some folks just set me off right now. Tense and snarky does not good company make. I don't feel like this around everyone.