10 April

Do I take things, people for granted? Am I taken for granted? I think both to an extent. Some things or people more so than others. Is this troublesome? Perhaps. How does one fix it? In the case of bein taken for granted, do you pull back? Would others even notice?

2 April

My weekend was pretty much as I wanted. A bit of excitement intermingled with some nice relaxin times. I enjoyed it.

Ben's finally married. He was late, heh, they both were. But all in all, they were married in a nice ceremony. Our "lady of intrigue" officiated and she did a wonderful job. I'm workin on gettin it sketched up. I'll admit, I didn't have the best view. Heh

My adventures were fun, challenging in their own way. The conversations were much the same. Some nice, others not so. But, as always, I'll dwell on the nice.

Else I'm left wonderin an dwellin on how to stop someone from tryin to destroy all I have?

30 March

My brother is to marry tomorrow. I wonder if they’ll go through with it. I have a dress, but I’m not too sure it’s me…I’ll probably look around for something else. He’s found this nice little place in the Wetlands. I never even knew it existed. It’s delightful. The perfect place for a weddin. They seem good for each other. She’s a nice girl. Has a problem with a gnome, though. I’m not sure how that’ll work out. I reckon they’ll go through with it. They both seem happy an eager. But have put it off several times. Heh, I ain’t never been in a weddin before. I don’t know what to do.

I’ve been kinda takin it easy. My weekend was pretty busy with goin places. I really like goin places. But other times, I like to kinda take it easy an chat a bit. Which I’ve also done some. I’m tryin to help Dora out a little by collectin some motes. She seemed tickled last night when I handed her what she needed to make her first primal mooncloth. We still don’t talk like we used to. Fel, we don’t really talk at all. Thank goodness I’ve got someone else I can talk to. But, we’re tryin to help each other out a bit.

Well, I hope we venture back to the Shadow Labyrinth tonight an that I get to do some more fun stuff this weekend. I’d also like to sit back an chat some. We’ll see. Every time, I think there’s more good folk out there, I’m reminded of how hateful an cruel folks can be. I hope no hateful, cruel folk cross me any time soon.

Heh, it seems I give some looks an other indications that I don't like folk I meet. Unapproachable. Interestin.

16 March

A fairly relaxin week. In a way, it's been nice. In other ways, I yearn for excitin adventure.

I've been adventurous. On Tuesday, several of us went into the Upper Spire to take on the General. On Wednesday, Me, Fel, an Taina went into Dire Maul an collected ogre beads off them smelly things. We all three got all the beads we needed, an now need to collect a few more things. A nice way to finish off the night was dinner an conversation. The food was good, the company was good, I enjoyed myself. Wednesday was a good day.

13 March

I've decided. It's time. I've gotta get away. I'm lookin forward to it. I find nice little spots here an there, but..this weekend..this weekend, I'm goin far away. I don't plan to pick up my stones at all. Last year, me an Dora went to a nice out of the way place. I'm doin the same this year. The sun, sand, an water calls for me. I hope the weather is agreeable. Hopefully, I'll be able to rest an get over this naggin, exhausted feelin.

Tonight, Taina has organized a trip to the Upper Spire. I can't even remember what pieces of Lightforge/Soulforge I need. At least the breastplate and helm...I think. I've already decided that since Mogs only needs the breastplate an she's almost done with her quest for the complete soulforge set, that I'm gonna defer my roll to her, if we get lucky. I still have plenty of time. I sure do hope someone in there walks out with their chestpiece tonight...

12 March

I'm sendin all my cloth an silk to Dora. As an act of good will. I know everything. Well, almost everything. I've known for several days, a week I guess. I'm not sure I like knowin what I know. My meetin with Dora didn't end as I'd have expected it to.

When we first talked last week, we were cordial. Contactin her was one of the hardest things I've ever done. I had no desires to re-hash things goin on, but I had to know what she was up to. We just talked. Both of us were fairly cool, but pleasant. She made no accusations, an I asked no questions. She said she's been doin some sewin an enchantin, an I told her I'd send my extra supplies. She seemed grateful. Even though she abandoned me, left without talkin to me, I'm still sendin her my extras.

09 March

I made my first trip into the Steamvault last night. Naga, elementals...ugh. It was rather rocky, but over all, I think we succeeded in what folks wanted to get accomplished. When we were done, all I could do was rush home and fall into a bed.

I've taken it easy since completin trainin. I've mined an worked on my smithin. I still need to work more, but I finally feel like I'm makin some headway.

I haven't talked to her. I'm wonderin if I ever will. I suppose I shoulda kept quiet an maintained some sort of civility we'd shared in those couple of days. At least then, I might know what she was up to...an what he was up to.

4 March

The water seemed so invitin as I flew over the first time. I didn't dare stop then, because I knew I'd be drawn to stay and I wanted to see so much more. I noted the location and continued on with the sight seein. I can't stay away for long. Soon, I find myself there. The water exhibits the tranquility I must be lookin for.

I've always enjoyed findin sorta hidden spots. Peaceful places I can sit an reflect. Most often, these places have water. Like my spot in Darnassus. I've never seen another soul there, unless I invited em. People used to wonder what I was doin in Darnassus for so long. Sometimes I sit an chat with people. Most often, I just look for peace.

Peace, quiet, cool refreshemnt. Those things drew me back today. Many things were invadin the peace I sought. Clearin my head proves more difficult. Swimmin, sinkin, swimmin. I hold my breath, lettin the clear water cleanse me. How I wish I could simply rinse the thoughts going through my head. I could imagine them flowin down the waterfall, tumblin carelessly to the pool at the bottom. I've struggled to stay busy, my mind on various tasks. Collectin warbeads, slayin demons an undead.

Today, I leave my stones on the warm rock, nestled among my clothes. I dive in, immediately awakened by the cold water. I swim laps along the length of the pool. Finally, I sink. I sink to the bottom, tryin to free my mind. I reach up, gaspin for air when I break the surface. I crawl up on the rock and lay down, warmed both by the rock an the sun shinin on down on me. I've given up on clearin my mind, I reflect on yesterday’s events.

I learned how to call forth my very own gryphon yesterday. What a glorious feelin it was to be able to fly through the air, controllin where I'm goin. Up...down...swoopin through the air. My happy thoughts don't linger for long.

What's he done? He doesn't realize. I fear for her safety, as well as my brothers. Should I? Am I bein paranoid? No, I'm not, I decide. My worries are not so much about their physical well-bein as much as emotionally and mentally. I do hope neither of them is destroyed.

I decide, I must seek her out, an warn him. This is not somethin I can ignore. I'm afraid I can't stop him. He's promised, but ignored me when I spoke of his...friends.

I set about to pickin up my armor. It seems heavier. I pick up my stones, noticin one has gone dim, fallen silent. I sigh heavily, oddly irked by this.

26 February

I made my first trip back in time a little over a week ago. After goin back, I realize how good it was that I was able to poke around. Overwhelmin as it is to go back in time like that...any time I want.

It seems the Infinite are continually tryin to disrupt the timeway, so headin back in over an over is almost a necessity. We've set the world straight twice. I'm very pleased at how well we've done.

Jes, Lendys, Rhyx, Sols, an me headed into the Black Morass. Another strange place. We actually did pretty well considerin four of us had no idea what to expect. We work well together.

A friend told me the other day I needed a companion, someone to confide in. She said I seemed very lonely, such as the type that could be lonely in a crowded room. Can't anyone be like that? I assured her I was fine. It interests me that I appear so. I have wonderful friends. I'm actually very lucky.

19 February

Well, the last few days have been quite eventful for me. Friday, I got to visit Old Hillsbrad for the first time. It's an amazin place. I wasn't feelin to well to begin with an once we got in there, I was simply blown away. Travelin through time...it's just strange. The combination of bein so tired an overwhelmed took a toll on me an I had to rest for what I thought was just a little while. Turned out, I slept clear until the next day. I woke up once, felt even worse than I did the night before.

Fortunately, by late Saturday, I was feelin lots better. Actually, better than I've felt in a while.

Fronzak, Lendys, Rhyx, Solsticia an I went to Old Hillsbrad to try to free Thrall. I actually kept em up standin an fightin most of the time. Though, in the end, we didn't get him completely free. I learned a lot there.

Sunday, Glyndin, Lyrren, Sheamass, Taina, an me went to what folks call the Mana-Tombs. It's in the Auchindoun in Terokkar Forest. Odd place it is. Taina had to go to a prior committment so Jeslyn joined us. We weren't successful in our final task either, but we learned a lot.

But, though I felt really good for those two evenins, I've kinda fallen back. I went to bed early. I'm tired today. Perhaps too much of a good thing?

I think I'll need to focus for a few days on minin. I've got both jewelcraftin an smithin to supply. That's apt to keep my busy for some time.

16 February

Bre's party was nice. She, an I, got to put faces with voices from the Knights as well as a few others. In the end, she was very tired an I had to rush off to Zul'Gurub. We fought this big sea monster thing. I'd seen similar creatures, but he bounced us all over creation. Mogs needed us to stay close to her so we'd all bounce at the same time. I found a nice little spot that if I bounced, I always landed in the water.

I've found that sometimes it's the little things. Little things I can't really share with everyone. Those little things make me smile. Little things like blinkin for the first time. Little things like a bouquet of flowers. It's the little things that mean the most to me.

15 February

I don't get all these tokens of affection an such. Can't folks see that it's just a means to get hurt?

I dunno, perhaps my bein tired is causin me to be more grumpy than I should.

No, I've just simply had it. I think I was wrong, again.

Bre's party is this evenin. I'll be there an in good spirits, like always. Heh, I ain't plannin on nothin more than bein there. That may be too much. Plannin don't leave nothin but disappointment behind.

Hopefully, this rubbish will be over soon an I'll be able to walk through town without the smell of perfume an cologne everywhere.

06 February

I am feelin better today. I think. The past few days have been long. For a many reasons. Part of which, I think I've sorted. I think.

Still, I often look for reasons to go visit Lord Grayson in Stormwind. But I don't think he'll be happy with me if I return to him wishin to retrain. I've got some new gear an I see a difference.

When I was trainin before, I had a nice balance between the holy, protection, an retributions specialties. Today, I'm mainly holy.

Before I go back an visit him, I'll see how much I can bug those able to hurt stuff a lot. See what I'll have to do to get them to come out an help me. An how long I can stand it....



"Hmmmm... Mira seems to have left this book open, while she is busy". Fel chuckles to himself. He admires the delicate lettering but is deeply saddened by so much heartache within these pages. Finding a pencil near by, he started to make some ammendments, but then thought better of it.... well maybe just one!

I am sure the word bug is totally wrong, thee could say command, but you would never do that... I know you to well. m'Lady, my guiding light and my Sovereign, just ask!

02 February

I'm still tired. Very tired. But things are all right.

I worked quite a bit yesterday, just not much in my plate. I hope to work more in my plate over the next few days.

I can now port myself to Darnassus! So now, my plan is to set my hearthstone to whatever area I'm workin in. It's easy to get used to. An easy to miss when I'm not in my robes.

01 February

A long two days. Yesterday was long. The atmosphere around me felt thick. Even though there was no question about attendin that memorial, it was not something I looked forward to.

After the memorial, I remained in Eastvale for a good while. I'd known him for just over a year. He was a good man and a lot of fun to be around.

I've found that I'm able to keep my mind on other things a lot better than I could in the past. Fightin, workin, chattin, etc. keeps my brain occupied and keeps me from coming undone.

Today, Fel an I worked all day. It was fruitful for the both of us. We both were able to visit our trainers an learn some new things. I netted well over 100g to boot.

But, I'm tired. Much more tired that I've been before.

28 January

The wind howls around the cabin. The walls creak. Oddly, I still find comfort here. The snow gently falls outside. The fire keeps my body warm, but does nothing for my heart.

I carried on with my usual business today. After I ... heard the awful news. I suppose had Megar . . . Megar. The name still rolls off my tongue as smooth as silk. No matter how long it's been since I mouthed it. Tonight was the first time in ages, I've said his name out loud.

Me, Fronzak, Tyree, Rena, Moz, an Aelien met with a fella, Priam, in Darnassus tonight. I'd met him once, a while ago. But Megar. Megar was in a guild with him.

Megar is gone. No sense in dwellin. I said goodbye a long time ago. A friend died in his sleep last night. I can't dwell on that either. I read the note Katen left. I'll attend the memorial. Because I should. I've said my goodbye. Here by this fire tonight.

I've always taken comfort here. The snow here doesn't feel so cold to me. I often find some peace here.

27 January

Fel, Rena, Tae an me did some work around the Marsh. We went out to these ruins, an as we were leavin, I remembered I had somethin to do there. I told em to wait. I drank that potion, an next thing I know, I'm lookin down a beak! AFter I talked to that fella standin there, I turned an faced my friends.

They didn't look so kindly toward me. I hugged an blew kisses to Rena an Tae. They just kinda stood there, in shock. But Felspar! He ran from me! He even tried to sap me!

Fortunately, my ugliness didn't last too long.

22 january

The last couple of weeks have been a blur. Many things goin on. Many changes.

I've experienced good an bad in the last two weeks. I've done a lot. I've not done some things I wanted to. But, such is life.

I have wonderful news. I wish that it not be overshadowed by any of the goins on around here. Benoin has returned! He's alive! I don't understand everything. He ended up on that island. Where the blue people crashed.

Hrm, the blue people. Draenei, I think? That crash. The portal. Coincidence? I think not. I've met a few Draenei. They seem to be honorable an follow the Light. Or are they one with the Light? I've admitted a few into the Knights. These Draenei have personally met other Knights an such. I'm not yet ready to whole-heartedly trust em.

I've been through the Dark Portal. What's on the other side is . . .

I've traveled further into the Outlands an rather like Zangarmarsh an Shat'rah City. The city's huge. An interestin. I've found it easy to get around in. Of course, I had this thing to give me a tour.

Ramblin, all I'm doin.

15 January

I am but one person. A human. A woman. I’m more than slightly imperfect. I have no formal education. I grew up in the hills of Elwynn. My folks, while well traveled, were simple country folk from Westfall. How I got to where I am today…

I'm one person. Sometimes unable to see the forest for the trees. I'm a human who's been hurt, a woman alone, perhaps rejected.

Through my trainin as a Paladin, I've learned that in order for some situations to not blow up, I must remove myself. I'm not made of glass. But I may shatter. Not shatter myself. But shatter others through my words and actions. I've done it in the past. I don't wanna do it again. I am not perfect.

I find myself steppin back from many things. Is it too much? I have yet to see. One battle ended a while ago. Did I win? More an more, I think not. But was there anything to win to begin with? Can you win what you cannot have?

I've removed myself from Dora's life. It's best.

I've been Sovereign of the Knights for one year. We've grown. I've seen good people come and good people go. Losing good people...it's very hard on me. I don't foresee that gettin any better or any easier for me.

I've made many mistakes. No doubt I'll make more. I am but one person. More than slightly imperfect.

12 January

There's been several life changing events since I began trainin as a Paladin. The invasion of the Scourge the biggest. But nothin's prepared me for this. I thought Nil, Bargas, an Alewen were speakin in madness. But it's happened. The portal. The Dark Portal. Demons….. When I was walkin around Darnassus ,I heard talk. I heard the elves clatterin. I dismissed it at first, ya know, as silly gossip. Much like I'd done with what Bargas was sayin. But when Zath told me the portal spewin out demons, I was alarmed. I couldn't lollygag around the city anymore. I ran back an told Fel's mum I'd see her as soon as I could.

I tried to help. Zath, Gan, an myself headed down to the Blasted Lands to see for ourselves. A sad sight indeed. Unsettlin. Demons seemingly pourin through the portal. Even a Dreadknight. I had a hard time, eventually passin out. When I came to, Zath yells to me to get out. I take off. Zath an I visit the Harborage an then travel back up to the Plaguelands.