28 January

The wind howls around the cabin. The walls creak. Oddly, I still find comfort here. The snow gently falls outside. The fire keeps my body warm, but does nothing for my heart.

I carried on with my usual business today. After I ... heard the awful news. I suppose had Megar . . . Megar. The name still rolls off my tongue as smooth as silk. No matter how long it's been since I mouthed it. Tonight was the first time in ages, I've said his name out loud.

Me, Fronzak, Tyree, Rena, Moz, an Aelien met with a fella, Priam, in Darnassus tonight. I'd met him once, a while ago. But Megar. Megar was in a guild with him.

Megar is gone. No sense in dwellin. I said goodbye a long time ago. A friend died in his sleep last night. I can't dwell on that either. I read the note Katen left. I'll attend the memorial. Because I should. I've said my goodbye. Here by this fire tonight.

I've always taken comfort here. The snow here doesn't feel so cold to me. I often find some peace here.

27 January

Fel, Rena, Tae an me did some work around the Marsh. We went out to these ruins, an as we were leavin, I remembered I had somethin to do there. I told em to wait. I drank that potion, an next thing I know, I'm lookin down a beak! AFter I talked to that fella standin there, I turned an faced my friends.

They didn't look so kindly toward me. I hugged an blew kisses to Rena an Tae. They just kinda stood there, in shock. But Felspar! He ran from me! He even tried to sap me!

Fortunately, my ugliness didn't last too long.

22 january

The last couple of weeks have been a blur. Many things goin on. Many changes.

I've experienced good an bad in the last two weeks. I've done a lot. I've not done some things I wanted to. But, such is life.

I have wonderful news. I wish that it not be overshadowed by any of the goins on around here. Benoin has returned! He's alive! I don't understand everything. He ended up on that island. Where the blue people crashed.

Hrm, the blue people. Draenei, I think? That crash. The portal. Coincidence? I think not. I've met a few Draenei. They seem to be honorable an follow the Light. Or are they one with the Light? I've admitted a few into the Knights. These Draenei have personally met other Knights an such. I'm not yet ready to whole-heartedly trust em.

I've been through the Dark Portal. What's on the other side is . . .

I've traveled further into the Outlands an rather like Zangarmarsh an Shat'rah City. The city's huge. An interestin. I've found it easy to get around in. Of course, I had this thing to give me a tour.

Ramblin, all I'm doin.

15 January

I am but one person. A human. A woman. I’m more than slightly imperfect. I have no formal education. I grew up in the hills of Elwynn. My folks, while well traveled, were simple country folk from Westfall. How I got to where I am today…

I'm one person. Sometimes unable to see the forest for the trees. I'm a human who's been hurt, a woman alone, perhaps rejected.

Through my trainin as a Paladin, I've learned that in order for some situations to not blow up, I must remove myself. I'm not made of glass. But I may shatter. Not shatter myself. But shatter others through my words and actions. I've done it in the past. I don't wanna do it again. I am not perfect.

I find myself steppin back from many things. Is it too much? I have yet to see. One battle ended a while ago. Did I win? More an more, I think not. But was there anything to win to begin with? Can you win what you cannot have?

I've removed myself from Dora's life. It's best.

I've been Sovereign of the Knights for one year. We've grown. I've seen good people come and good people go. Losing good people...it's very hard on me. I don't foresee that gettin any better or any easier for me.

I've made many mistakes. No doubt I'll make more. I am but one person. More than slightly imperfect.

12 January

There's been several life changing events since I began trainin as a Paladin. The invasion of the Scourge the biggest. But nothin's prepared me for this. I thought Nil, Bargas, an Alewen were speakin in madness. But it's happened. The portal. The Dark Portal. Demons….. When I was walkin around Darnassus ,I heard talk. I heard the elves clatterin. I dismissed it at first, ya know, as silly gossip. Much like I'd done with what Bargas was sayin. But when Zath told me the portal spewin out demons, I was alarmed. I couldn't lollygag around the city anymore. I ran back an told Fel's mum I'd see her as soon as I could.

I tried to help. Zath, Gan, an myself headed down to the Blasted Lands to see for ourselves. A sad sight indeed. Unsettlin. Demons seemingly pourin through the portal. Even a Dreadknight. I had a hard time, eventually passin out. When I came to, Zath yells to me to get out. I take off. Zath an I visit the Harborage an then travel back up to the Plaguelands.

Through my travels I've met many a fine souls. I ain't gonna name 'em fer I'll miss somebody. One day, I was runnin through Elwynn, returnin' home from Lakeshire an I met a fella on a mount. He was actually the first person I had e'er talke to that rode a horse. Oh, it was a pretty horse and was covered in some sort of armor. I had ne'er seen anything like it. His name was Brugarian an' he was tryin to develop a army to go an take back our homeland, Lor'Aeron. Well, I ain't ne'er been much on that war. Ifn e'erbody would just leave e'erbody else alone, we'd be all good. But, I had been adventuring and travelin for a while and hadn't yet met anyone I liked. He invited me ta join him. I rose some in tha ranks rather quickly and foun' another friend Praam. We would go out and complete tasks together when it was convenient fer us. Soon Praam disappeared an' Brugarian was around less an less. So, again, I was all alone. This was not ta last!

19 November

When Ladora came home tonight, she was clearly agitated. Her frustration grew when I told her I was headed back out to finish somethin. She protested, as much as she ever has, but I left anyway. I promised her I wouldn’t be long. An I wasn’t, but she was asleep when I returned. She actually looked peaceful, layin there, so I left her be. I’m sittin here in the chair enjoyin a good ale, kinda watchin over her. She seemed so fretted earlier.

09 November

Well, times are achangin! The Friends stone is a wonderful tool. I hear new voices all the time an have met lots of new folks. I ain’t much on them hearin my thoughts too much. Because I ain’t as good with words as they are. But, I love hearin the chatter. Jus like I like hearin chatter on our guild stone. Few things give me such enjoyment.

A few weeks ago me an Dora spent some time on the coast. It was nice. But all that idle time only gave me time to think. To think about things I haven’t in a long while. I tend to usually keep myself real busy. An while I got a lot of rest, there ain’t but so much sleepin a gal can do. Ryn has wrote a little bout himself an it made me a tad sad. All the folk in my life seem to disappear. Megar, Ben, my parents are all gone. Ben . . . gone . . . I hope he’s out there dealin with the death of our parents. I hope. An Megar, my first love. We spent hours trainin in the ways of the Light.

19 October

Naked. I feel naked. Yet I'm more clothed than I've been on many occasions. Perhaps it's the weight of the plate I miss. But the weapons! Whether I use a blade or stave, I swing it quickly and effortlessly. I suppose I'm jus more comfortable in plate. I'm usually one to stick my armor in my bags when I'm not out fightin. Yet, last night, I forgot I even had all that armor on. How can I not realize I have plate armor on? Strange indeed.

But back to the issue at hand. I do enjoy feelin the magic course through me an I like my those gnolls and wolves being half dead before they ever get to me. But boy, if they see me before I see them, I'm more often than not visitin the spirit healer. Squishy is definitely a different feelin!

It seems I'll be goin to Zul'Gurub this evenin. I do hope I know a little more what to do this time than the last. Thankfully, I know everyone on this trip. Some better than others. But I can talk to Em an Taina an Rita about what we're each gonna be healin an cleansin. I'm excited. I've never been on a trip where everyone was completely sane. That I look forward to more than anythin. Well almost more than anythin.

Oh! It's all Hallow's eve. Not that it means that much to me. I'll talk to the occasional inn keeper an see if I can get a little masque or somethin, as different parties are comin up. But I had my plate in Storwind last night. I went to pick it up an couldn't get through all the people! Drove me batty, gettin pushed around. Everytime I'd get up, someone would knock me down. I gave up several times. But I knew I had things I had to get done.

Ale's havin a party tomorrow night. I jus dunno about it. I'm afraid with the Horde an Alliance there, drinkin an carryin on, that trouble's gonna be stirrin. But I'm interested, an I'll go. I ain't dancin though! The drinkin--yes. Dancin--nope.

02 October

His pup woke me from a fitful sleep. I was stayin the night at Ben's. Somethin I hadn't done in ages. Ben was not who I missed tonight. I scurried about and threw on a robe. The pup excitedly barked and growled to alert me. Lookin through the windows, I surmised it musta been a stray wonderin through the streets. As far as I could see, I saw nothin but the empty streets an canals of Stormwind.

After softly scoldin the pup, I laid back down, missin his touch even more. Still not used to bein alone at night. Would I ever get used to it? Perhaps I should start stayin at the Inn again. How comfortin his arms are, wrapped around me as I sleep. I thought the lager & mead I shared with a friend at the pub would be enough to help me engage sleep. If it hadn't been for all the conversations of the evenin--hellos, goodbyes, doors openin, and doors closin--it perhaps would have been enough. My mind raced, early to rise in the mornin. A long day ahead. Oh, sleep please take me over! An again, I thought how easily I could sleep if I were in his arms.

I didn't enjoy stayin at Bens. How could I? Conversations with Malleyna, Rena, Trisseyl, Lendys all floated around in my head. A fitful sleep indeed. I called the pup over and dropped my hand. She laid down an I finally drifted off to sleep, absently rubbin her coat. Takin comfort in her presence.

20 September

It's been a while. So many things have changed. Our family has grown. Like the seasons, changes have been many. We've lost dear friends, some are fadin, an others remain constant (thank Elune).

No longer are we such a family centered on servin the will of Ysera. I can't decide this to be a good thing or not so good. I suppose good. In recognizin the diverse natures of our friends an family. But at the same time, I wish not to forsake our foundin principles.

I so want to improve our family more. I want to improve the resources available to our family. One thing about the Knights. Most are so laid back, they're happy jus havin company. An to an extent, I am too. No one want to hurt feelins. An that's good. But bein scared to speak up for the good of the guild isn't good. I'm not sure how to fix things like that.

I've visited Zul'Gurub. What a harrowin experience. I think I could take a group of Knights in. We'd certainly fall a few times but oh, we'd learn! We are almost to the point where we could get a group of 20.

A few guild things I'd like to focus on for now. Readyin ourselves to visit Zul'Gurub, get a few keys to the Upper Spire. An jus continue on trainin. Gettin better. Can I do this? I've delegated Darmi an Tennon for this an we've made great improvements.

How do we schedule more stuff? What times do I do it. -sigh- I'm jus not sure.

28 April

I awoke briefly this evenin, and guess what! I was right! Kell has returned to tha family! I can't believe it. I have spoken to him on the guildstone, but haven't yet seen him face ta face. Soon, hopefully! We should have a party! Yep, a party.

We've changed since he left. Our family's grown, we've all grown. Some of us are gone, dead or disapeared. Some of us have disappeared, returned, only ta leave again. Some have chosen different paths, somethin that better suits 'em. While some of this brings sad times, the new family members we have are awesome! Our family is awesome. I jus love 'em!

28 April

I've recieved a message from Kell. A little sparrow brought it to me. I do hope this means he's returning to us. He'd disappeared, with nary explanation, only a brief good-bye. But now, after so long, I've gotten a message. Oh, I do hope he returns soon! I've stuck the message here in me journal.


Dear Mira;
First off I must apologize for leaving so suddenly, but I had my reasons for which I will explain.

I have recently been made aware of Rivkah's resignation and I'm truly saddened by this. But my saddness doesn't compare to the joy I felt when I heard that you were honoured as her successor. I don't think there could have been a better person chosen for the job.

Well I'm sure your curiosity warrants the reason for my abscence. The reason I left is because my family was in danger. You see I wasn't raised by elves or any humanoid race, I was raised by nature herself. She nurtured me, fed me, protected me and gave me her gift to commune with nature. I recieved a message from a falcon. It seemed that my grove was being destroyed and unbalancing it's tranquility. That grove was not only my sanctuary but my brethren, the animals as well. Turns out that the orcs were doing some clear cutting for war machines. Needless to say I have been fighting my own private war up til recently. If you wish you may share this with the others, I leave the discretion to you.

Lastly, your probably wondering why Dai, the sparrow, is still sitting on your shoulder. If you wish to send a responce, give it to day, along with some crackers. I look forward to seeing you again soon and may Ysera bless you and guide your path.

Your Brother
Kellendros.


Oh, I hope ta see him soon! It has been way too long. Though his travels have been painful. Hopefully, he can put all of it behind him. I have missed him so!

28 March

Well, I've been restin a bit more. Ladora is workin hard ta get ta where she can go to tha big places. I never knew her ta be one adventurous. But I should've. There was no stoppin her when she wanted ta go back home. Fer one so proper, she sure does have a fire under her arse!

One reason I been restin is cuz every time I get into a good fight, I start movin in slow motion. I try stoppin ta rest, but if that helps, it's only fer a moment. Golech has a bit o the trouble also. Course, he says it only really happens when I'm around. Hmm, it happens ta me a lot more when he's around. Well . . . he is a magnetic sorta fella. But . . . well . . . I mean . . . he's a good friend . . .

22 March

Long ago, I began keepin company with a certain Warlock. I know not many Paladins would do such a thing. However, why not? You certainly can't trust many folks. Why not keep company with someone you know you got ta keep an eye on? I find it harder ta make friends these days. I am way too suspicious. I can't help it though. I've been wronged too many times. By folks who make out ta be good. And in the end, they're no better than the most vile Forsaken. I've had enough. I do nothin but be nice ta folks an they take advantage of ya. Make ya feel guilty. Piss on em. I am done.

I may not be tha smartest or tha most graceful. But no one else is any better than me! This I know. So, I'll spend time keepin company with my friends, those I know I can trust. An my Golech. Those that love me fer who I am. An have no unreasonable expectations. An I'll laugh erytime I think about the holier-than-thou attitudes of the vile.

13 March

Well, Felspar and I were lucky enough to be invited back to the Spire this evenin. That makes two times I have been there and two times I have helped slay the General. I a am very pleased with the groups I have been with.

The first time in, I knew my group an I knew Em's group. Xerxces lead the way, and is an awesome defender. The Knights grow stronger and better each time we adventure under him. Anyways, Fronzak, Golech, Felspar, and myself were on that trip. There were a few folks that the Bastion knew and invited. For the most of us it was our first time. We went slow, we all perished one time because of a very stupid mistake which I don't even remember now. It should not have happened. Against the general, we did good, a few died, but we were able to bring em back to life.

I now carry the Mark of Drakkisath. I'm not so sure I'm happy bout that. Carryin tha some mark of a dragon?

11 March

The city of Stratholme saw us again. Wow what a trip! After the trip into the Spire an me dreadful trip las night, I spoke with Em and Xerxces about perhaps gettin some trainin. Well, lo and behold they asked us ta go to Stratholme tha very next day! I needed holy water from the dreadful place, an I got it now.

In the group was Felspar, Lanaki, Fronzak, Golech, an myself. An with their group was Xercxes, Em, Lendys, Tyree, and Zeral. What fun times!

Though I got quite ill, and had ta leave me friends early. I was very upset. But I felt I was doin more harm than good by bein there. Luckily, Mograthna joined up with 'em an, well, I'm sure she did a better job than I did, anyways. Golech said later he didn't enjoy himself near as much after I was gone. An, Lanaki and Felspar frowned at me when I was a leavin. But I tried lying down an catchin me breath. An it jus wouldn't work.

Well, I'm happy ta say, that near the end, this hear Lightforge Belt, I's wearin was dropped by somebody. An guess what! Even though someone won the roll, they decided it should come to me! My first class set! While gear ain't ne'er meant evrythin to me, I sure do like what this here belt does fer me as well as how it looks. Oh, I will enjoy having matchin armor some day. I will!

04 March

Our first trip inta the Spire. Upper Black Rock Spire. UBRS as lots o folks calls it. Twas an intresting trip. I felt like I's workin on slow motion a lot. Not sure what was goin on there. But, we were successful in what we went fer, I guess. I won't after nuthin in particular. There were a few mistakes, a few hard fought battles. I was with Golech, Felspar, Fronzak, and Em. With Em, was a group from her guild, Xercxes, Zeral, Tyree, an Lendys. There were a few more folks, I didn't really know, but Em or Xercxes did. Bein my first encounter to such a place, it was lots of fun.

01 March

Well, we ventured into Stratholme this eve. Damned place. I wouldn't mind neer goin back. But, we will, probably within the next few moons.

It was Felspar, Golech, Kazzi, an myself. Demetrious, the rogue joined us then Lanaki came an replaced him. We made it a ways in, but not near far as we woulda liked. But we had fun an' didn't die but oh, um . . . too damn many times.

O'course, none of us had ever been into tha city. 'Cept for Dem, o course. Hopefully, our next trip will be better. Hopefully . . .

14 February

How strange . . . There's some strange stuff goin' on, in these parts. Loyalty, friendship, love . . . Most of it seems quite silly to me. However, I received the most gorgeous dress in the mail. From a complete stranger! It's black and very nice. I shall wear it at our next guild meetin', I think.

Ladora hasn't been interested in all of this either. She's had a few people to approach her about "Spreadin' the Love". And they have been offended when she said she had no interest in all this love stuff. Thank Elune that she realizes a holy priestess such as herself, has no need for such trite things.

I must be going into Stratholme soon. Will that be the end? I think not. I think the tasks at hand to finally attain my epic mount will be far more involved than that. To Stratholme . . . and beyond.