31 December

I am truly happy. Another realization that came quickly. Startled me and took my breath. Not as much as the one, but still.

How is it something can sneak up on you and once you realize what's happened, it's really too late to stop it. Do you even wanna stop it? I don't.

Thinkin back a few months, I realized...and it caught my breath. I felt stuck under water for a few moments, unable to take a breath. Breath I needed. Had I really cared....it would've been way too late. It sounds bad. Perhaps it was for a short time. But it didn't take long for the panic to subside.

I'm happy.

24 December

It's odd. It's odd how something that seems so silly at the time can cause a world of trouble. How quickly something so sweet and special can be ruined.

I hope it's not as I think. As bad. I hope I get over this feelin.

20 December

I think he's truly gone. I went after him, a couple months back, after gettin word of where he might be. But I got nothin...now...I can't even sense him at all.

I am but one. Something new...something I don't like. One Traas.

12 December

Things change. Life ebbs and flows through many twists and turns. There's changes I've experienced that I wouldn't have ever said likely. Fel, I wouldn't have even allowed em.

Fel's slipped off. Gone. Into the shadows. Ree's stepped back. Rivkah's disappeared...

We've ventured into Medihv's tower. A rather dangerous place. Over all, I'm pleased with how it's goin. We'll see what the future holds.

I'm workin on definin some things within the Knights. Our family grows an is successful. But I still feel the need to know each one. I don't think I'm successful.