29 May

I don't feel well...and I'm tired of folks askin me what's wrong. I know they're concerned, but I'm not -actin- like something's wrong. I'm talking and conversing and whatever, just like normal. I'm not moping. In addition to not feeling well, I'm just generally grumpy.

Perhaps my grumpiness is telling. Need to get rid of grumpy...

28 May

I did my good deed....Is this bad? It's Children's Week or some such and folks are really enjoyin takin the kids around to see the sights. I did it to make the Lower City like me more. I'm not good with kids. I kept losin this one! Thank goodness the matron gave me a whistle...though I felt like I was callin a dog....The kid gave me her baby elekk, Peanut...who likes to stand under my feet...

I spent another night in a bar with folks. Good conversation...well, most of it was anyways. Again, enjoyable with lots of drink...and I left early again...Fiest told one helluva story. She's good at that. Moon was put on the spot but he wouldn't tell anything good. Rhiver and her pack are quite close and protective. Much like the Knights.

Good drink, good company...

27 May

Well, last night was both eventful and un-eventful. Is that possible?

Saturday evenin, Ree and I were in Stormwind to meet Vael and Windblossom. We had a nice surprise, and we retired to the Blue Recluse for drinks and conversation. As the night progressed and we drank more an more, people revolved in and out. Some ladies from a different guild...Ath-somethin joined us and we all talked and drank. Unfortunately, I grew too tired to continue on and had to be a party-pooper. I'm usually the last to leave something...but my mood just wasn't what I want it to be. Rhyx embarassed the day-lights out of me, but the other patrons didn't seem to mind her at all.

Thank goodness, I don't get hang-overs...

25 May

I still haven't heard from him. I reckon he's avoidin me. Perhaps he's realized the err of his ways. But none-the-less, he can't avoid me for too long. Especially if he knows what's good for him. Heh, I actually sound dangerous. I'm not dangerous at all. Definitely not malicious as I've been accused. What would make someone think me harmful?

Last night Lyrren and I had a primal gatherin party. It was a bit chaotic. I got pretty stressed among other things. We spent about 2.5 bells and gathered 15 primals...enough for each person who came one. I had a nice relaxin time afterwards. It was what I needed to end the day.

18 May

Heh, I haven't heard from him since I told him we needed to talk. He said he'd take care of her. I think she needs help now. Give him the benefit of the doubt....He's a good man...he better take care of her.

12 May

The weddin was a nice one...as far as weddings go anyways. Even if the groom was a bit late. I was tired, uneasy so I left pretty quick after the ceremony was over. I sat out in the fresh air of the Hinterlands for a goodly while. Remembered places I'd near forgotten about. I think...I think I'll visit some of em when I have the time, when I wanna get away. It's been too long.

I think...I think somethin needs to be done about her. She's in trouble. I just know it. Now...now I gotta talk to him. Ugh

08 May

This week's been a slow one. Just like I wanted, pretty much. Gwyn and Ryn's reception was the Saturday night. It was nice, I just don't really enjoy those things. I'd much rather be with a smaller group.

Well, two of my friends may be gone for a while an it saddens me greatly. Hopefully, Elune, the Light and all that jazz will follow em and keep em safe. An happy. They need to be happy as well.

I've decided to really focus on attainin some keys from different folks in the Outlands. It's not that it's that difficult, just....time consumin and borin. I know what I gotta do, just not how much I gotta do it. I also would like to see the end of the Shadow Labyrinth. Strange how that's a place I can't seem to get to the end of...I'm really beginnin to hate that place.

Rita and Seregor get married this week. I've found a nice skirt...now for somethin to match it.

03 May

I overheard a conversation in the guild hall. One I think I should not have been privy to. ...

There comes a time when all must be brought out into the open. I said my mind would be open, but my heart isn't. Many people let their heart lead them. I've been told, "I deserve what my heart wants." It's my heart that keeps me the way I am. Odd isn't it? For most, their mind is what stops them from enterin into matters of the heart. For me, my heart stops me. My heart cannot stand to ache any more.

My heart doesn't ache any more. It's actually usually over-joyed. It's just not what most folks think I need. But it is. As I told a friend today: I think at one time I had faith in Love. Now, that's gone. An honestly, over the past year and a half, I've been happier than I ever was...except for brief, fleetin moments. My heart is full, not with Love, I don't think, but full none-the-less.

02 May

Our Tyree got her swift mount the other day. It's beautiful. She has a wonderful name for her too. I was grinnin from ear to ear when she told me.

Normally, when I'm friendly with someone, they turn tail an hide when they realize my heart simply won't let me take things further than...friends. Two people in my life have remained. And they are my dearest friends. My next dearest friends never asked for more than friendship. They're very special to me as well. Without these four people, I'd never have lasted.

There's one, I occasionally miss. I used to be able to talk to her about almost anything. But she's made choices that...are quite dangerous. An she says the same about me. She was the nearest thing I had to a confidant. Thankfully, I have someone else for that...as Dora's out of my life forever, I believe. She dropped a new robe by the guild hall. I'm sure it simply furthered her practice in tailorin. But, it's pretty anyways an I sent her a nice thank you note. It's slightly revealin, so I'm not sure I'll wear it to the reception or reserve it for another time.

01 May

Here we go, we've reached the clutch point. Will it, as usual, all end here, or will it continue on? Only time will tell. There's always a first time for everything.

I ventured back into the Shadow Labyrinth last night. I'm really beginnin to hate that place. Luck simply isn't on my side when I'm in there. We made it further than we'd ever made it before but we ran out of time and energy.

The events of the night left me satisfied but longin for more.