29 May

I don't feel well...and I'm tired of folks askin me what's wrong. I know they're concerned, but I'm not -actin- like something's wrong. I'm talking and conversing and whatever, just like normal. I'm not moping. In addition to not feeling well, I'm just generally grumpy.

Perhaps my grumpiness is telling. Need to get rid of grumpy...

28 May

I did my good deed....Is this bad? It's Children's Week or some such and folks are really enjoyin takin the kids around to see the sights. I did it to make the Lower City like me more. I'm not good with kids. I kept losin this one! Thank goodness the matron gave me a whistle...though I felt like I was callin a dog....The kid gave me her baby elekk, Peanut...who likes to stand under my feet...

I spent another night in a bar with folks. Good conversation...well, most of it was anyways. Again, enjoyable with lots of drink...and I left early again...Fiest told one helluva story. She's good at that. Moon was put on the spot but he wouldn't tell anything good. Rhiver and her pack are quite close and protective. Much like the Knights.

Good drink, good company...

27 May

Well, last night was both eventful and un-eventful. Is that possible?

Saturday evenin, Ree and I were in Stormwind to meet Vael and Windblossom. We had a nice surprise, and we retired to the Blue Recluse for drinks and conversation. As the night progressed and we drank more an more, people revolved in and out. Some ladies from a different guild...Ath-somethin joined us and we all talked and drank. Unfortunately, I grew too tired to continue on and had to be a party-pooper. I'm usually the last to leave something...but my mood just wasn't what I want it to be. Rhyx embarassed the day-lights out of me, but the other patrons didn't seem to mind her at all.

Thank goodness, I don't get hang-overs...

25 May

I still haven't heard from him. I reckon he's avoidin me. Perhaps he's realized the err of his ways. But none-the-less, he can't avoid me for too long. Especially if he knows what's good for him. Heh, I actually sound dangerous. I'm not dangerous at all. Definitely not malicious as I've been accused. What would make someone think me harmful?

Last night Lyrren and I had a primal gatherin party. It was a bit chaotic. I got pretty stressed among other things. We spent about 2.5 bells and gathered 15 primals...enough for each person who came one. I had a nice relaxin time afterwards. It was what I needed to end the day.

18 May

Heh, I haven't heard from him since I told him we needed to talk. He said he'd take care of her. I think she needs help now. Give him the benefit of the doubt....He's a good man...he better take care of her.

12 May

The weddin was a nice one...as far as weddings go anyways. Even if the groom was a bit late. I was tired, uneasy so I left pretty quick after the ceremony was over. I sat out in the fresh air of the Hinterlands for a goodly while. Remembered places I'd near forgotten about. I think...I think I'll visit some of em when I have the time, when I wanna get away. It's been too long.

I think...I think somethin needs to be done about her. She's in trouble. I just know it. Now...now I gotta talk to him. Ugh

08 May

This week's been a slow one. Just like I wanted, pretty much. Gwyn and Ryn's reception was the Saturday night. It was nice, I just don't really enjoy those things. I'd much rather be with a smaller group.

Well, two of my friends may be gone for a while an it saddens me greatly. Hopefully, Elune, the Light and all that jazz will follow em and keep em safe. An happy. They need to be happy as well.

I've decided to really focus on attainin some keys from different folks in the Outlands. It's not that it's that difficult, just....time consumin and borin. I know what I gotta do, just not how much I gotta do it. I also would like to see the end of the Shadow Labyrinth. Strange how that's a place I can't seem to get to the end of...I'm really beginnin to hate that place.

Rita and Seregor get married this week. I've found a nice skirt...now for somethin to match it.

03 May

I overheard a conversation in the guild hall. One I think I should not have been privy to. ...

There comes a time when all must be brought out into the open. I said my mind would be open, but my heart isn't. Many people let their heart lead them. I've been told, "I deserve what my heart wants." It's my heart that keeps me the way I am. Odd isn't it? For most, their mind is what stops them from enterin into matters of the heart. For me, my heart stops me. My heart cannot stand to ache any more.

My heart doesn't ache any more. It's actually usually over-joyed. It's just not what most folks think I need. But it is. As I told a friend today: I think at one time I had faith in Love. Now, that's gone. An honestly, over the past year and a half, I've been happier than I ever was...except for brief, fleetin moments. My heart is full, not with Love, I don't think, but full none-the-less.

02 May

Our Tyree got her swift mount the other day. It's beautiful. She has a wonderful name for her too. I was grinnin from ear to ear when she told me.

Normally, when I'm friendly with someone, they turn tail an hide when they realize my heart simply won't let me take things further than...friends. Two people in my life have remained. And they are my dearest friends. My next dearest friends never asked for more than friendship. They're very special to me as well. Without these four people, I'd never have lasted.

There's one, I occasionally miss. I used to be able to talk to her about almost anything. But she's made choices that...are quite dangerous. An she says the same about me. She was the nearest thing I had to a confidant. Thankfully, I have someone else for that...as Dora's out of my life forever, I believe. She dropped a new robe by the guild hall. I'm sure it simply furthered her practice in tailorin. But, it's pretty anyways an I sent her a nice thank you note. It's slightly revealin, so I'm not sure I'll wear it to the reception or reserve it for another time.

01 May

Here we go, we've reached the clutch point. Will it, as usual, all end here, or will it continue on? Only time will tell. There's always a first time for everything.

I ventured back into the Shadow Labyrinth last night. I'm really beginnin to hate that place. Luck simply isn't on my side when I'm in there. We made it further than we'd ever made it before but we ran out of time and energy.

The events of the night left me satisfied but longin for more.

22 April

Usually I like surprises. Some are better than others, some are simply intoxicatin. It draws you in, like one inhales the contents of a hookah pipe, slow an deep. Spreadin through your body, blissfully drenchin you.

Surprises: unexpected, pleasant, intriguin intoxicatin--what joy. I've received a few such surprises in my lifetime, one most recently, though my memory is fuddled. Could it be the smoke I inhaled, or the surprise itself? Or was it all a surreal hallucination?

10 April

Do I take things, people for granted? Am I taken for granted? I think both to an extent. Some things or people more so than others. Is this troublesome? Perhaps. How does one fix it? In the case of bein taken for granted, do you pull back? Would others even notice?

2 April

My weekend was pretty much as I wanted. A bit of excitement intermingled with some nice relaxin times. I enjoyed it.

Ben's finally married. He was late, heh, they both were. But all in all, they were married in a nice ceremony. Our "lady of intrigue" officiated and she did a wonderful job. I'm workin on gettin it sketched up. I'll admit, I didn't have the best view. Heh

My adventures were fun, challenging in their own way. The conversations were much the same. Some nice, others not so. But, as always, I'll dwell on the nice.

Else I'm left wonderin an dwellin on how to stop someone from tryin to destroy all I have?

30 March

My brother is to marry tomorrow. I wonder if they’ll go through with it. I have a dress, but I’m not too sure it’s me…I’ll probably look around for something else. He’s found this nice little place in the Wetlands. I never even knew it existed. It’s delightful. The perfect place for a weddin. They seem good for each other. She’s a nice girl. Has a problem with a gnome, though. I’m not sure how that’ll work out. I reckon they’ll go through with it. They both seem happy an eager. But have put it off several times. Heh, I ain’t never been in a weddin before. I don’t know what to do.

I’ve been kinda takin it easy. My weekend was pretty busy with goin places. I really like goin places. But other times, I like to kinda take it easy an chat a bit. Which I’ve also done some. I’m tryin to help Dora out a little by collectin some motes. She seemed tickled last night when I handed her what she needed to make her first primal mooncloth. We still don’t talk like we used to. Fel, we don’t really talk at all. Thank goodness I’ve got someone else I can talk to. But, we’re tryin to help each other out a bit.

Well, I hope we venture back to the Shadow Labyrinth tonight an that I get to do some more fun stuff this weekend. I’d also like to sit back an chat some. We’ll see. Every time, I think there’s more good folk out there, I’m reminded of how hateful an cruel folks can be. I hope no hateful, cruel folk cross me any time soon.

Heh, it seems I give some looks an other indications that I don't like folk I meet. Unapproachable. Interestin.

16 March

A fairly relaxin week. In a way, it's been nice. In other ways, I yearn for excitin adventure.

I've been adventurous. On Tuesday, several of us went into the Upper Spire to take on the General. On Wednesday, Me, Fel, an Taina went into Dire Maul an collected ogre beads off them smelly things. We all three got all the beads we needed, an now need to collect a few more things. A nice way to finish off the night was dinner an conversation. The food was good, the company was good, I enjoyed myself. Wednesday was a good day.

13 March

I've decided. It's time. I've gotta get away. I'm lookin forward to it. I find nice little spots here an there, but..this weekend..this weekend, I'm goin far away. I don't plan to pick up my stones at all. Last year, me an Dora went to a nice out of the way place. I'm doin the same this year. The sun, sand, an water calls for me. I hope the weather is agreeable. Hopefully, I'll be able to rest an get over this naggin, exhausted feelin.

Tonight, Taina has organized a trip to the Upper Spire. I can't even remember what pieces of Lightforge/Soulforge I need. At least the breastplate and helm...I think. I've already decided that since Mogs only needs the breastplate an she's almost done with her quest for the complete soulforge set, that I'm gonna defer my roll to her, if we get lucky. I still have plenty of time. I sure do hope someone in there walks out with their chestpiece tonight...

12 March

I'm sendin all my cloth an silk to Dora. As an act of good will. I know everything. Well, almost everything. I've known for several days, a week I guess. I'm not sure I like knowin what I know. My meetin with Dora didn't end as I'd have expected it to.

When we first talked last week, we were cordial. Contactin her was one of the hardest things I've ever done. I had no desires to re-hash things goin on, but I had to know what she was up to. We just talked. Both of us were fairly cool, but pleasant. She made no accusations, an I asked no questions. She said she's been doin some sewin an enchantin, an I told her I'd send my extra supplies. She seemed grateful. Even though she abandoned me, left without talkin to me, I'm still sendin her my extras.

09 March

I made my first trip into the Steamvault last night. Naga, elementals...ugh. It was rather rocky, but over all, I think we succeeded in what folks wanted to get accomplished. When we were done, all I could do was rush home and fall into a bed.

I've taken it easy since completin trainin. I've mined an worked on my smithin. I still need to work more, but I finally feel like I'm makin some headway.

I haven't talked to her. I'm wonderin if I ever will. I suppose I shoulda kept quiet an maintained some sort of civility we'd shared in those couple of days. At least then, I might know what she was up to...an what he was up to.

4 March

The water seemed so invitin as I flew over the first time. I didn't dare stop then, because I knew I'd be drawn to stay and I wanted to see so much more. I noted the location and continued on with the sight seein. I can't stay away for long. Soon, I find myself there. The water exhibits the tranquility I must be lookin for.

I've always enjoyed findin sorta hidden spots. Peaceful places I can sit an reflect. Most often, these places have water. Like my spot in Darnassus. I've never seen another soul there, unless I invited em. People used to wonder what I was doin in Darnassus for so long. Sometimes I sit an chat with people. Most often, I just look for peace.

Peace, quiet, cool refreshemnt. Those things drew me back today. Many things were invadin the peace I sought. Clearin my head proves more difficult. Swimmin, sinkin, swimmin. I hold my breath, lettin the clear water cleanse me. How I wish I could simply rinse the thoughts going through my head. I could imagine them flowin down the waterfall, tumblin carelessly to the pool at the bottom. I've struggled to stay busy, my mind on various tasks. Collectin warbeads, slayin demons an undead.

Today, I leave my stones on the warm rock, nestled among my clothes. I dive in, immediately awakened by the cold water. I swim laps along the length of the pool. Finally, I sink. I sink to the bottom, tryin to free my mind. I reach up, gaspin for air when I break the surface. I crawl up on the rock and lay down, warmed both by the rock an the sun shinin on down on me. I've given up on clearin my mind, I reflect on yesterday’s events.

I learned how to call forth my very own gryphon yesterday. What a glorious feelin it was to be able to fly through the air, controllin where I'm goin. Up...down...swoopin through the air. My happy thoughts don't linger for long.

What's he done? He doesn't realize. I fear for her safety, as well as my brothers. Should I? Am I bein paranoid? No, I'm not, I decide. My worries are not so much about their physical well-bein as much as emotionally and mentally. I do hope neither of them is destroyed.

I decide, I must seek her out, an warn him. This is not somethin I can ignore. I'm afraid I can't stop him. He's promised, but ignored me when I spoke of his...friends.

I set about to pickin up my armor. It seems heavier. I pick up my stones, noticin one has gone dim, fallen silent. I sigh heavily, oddly irked by this.

26 February

I made my first trip back in time a little over a week ago. After goin back, I realize how good it was that I was able to poke around. Overwhelmin as it is to go back in time like that...any time I want.

It seems the Infinite are continually tryin to disrupt the timeway, so headin back in over an over is almost a necessity. We've set the world straight twice. I'm very pleased at how well we've done.

Jes, Lendys, Rhyx, Sols, an me headed into the Black Morass. Another strange place. We actually did pretty well considerin four of us had no idea what to expect. We work well together.

A friend told me the other day I needed a companion, someone to confide in. She said I seemed very lonely, such as the type that could be lonely in a crowded room. Can't anyone be like that? I assured her I was fine. It interests me that I appear so. I have wonderful friends. I'm actually very lucky.